A Reason To Smile......

Not long back..I used to accompany my fren cz she had to help a girl wid her studies...
Those were one of toughest days of my life goin thru a lot emotionaly..mentally...n this new place didn greet me well either.....
neither my past had given me a good exit...more of it we had boring training schedule n mostly we bunked them ..no recreation.. added to the frustration...
So,this going n teaching seemed to b a good idea...I had nothing do as such n during those 2 hrs i played wid d girl's lil brother n helped him wid his lessons..
His mom said "isko thoda padha do"...she also sed he was  too playfull...i love kids n mingle wid them soon..
it didn take much time for him to get frenly wid me too....When i told him to study he tried to fool me away....
i knew d "not to study" tricks...n somehow wid tym he managed to sit wid me for half n hour for his lessons...
after A B C..he wud directly jump on to H or any other letter..I wud laugh n ask him is it H or D..n he wud quickly say...D..n run away from me........dat was way too charming...
As the days passsed i cud see him waiting for me n as i entered d hall he wud be ready wid his books...
He used to show me his toys n every other thing he was fond of..he did his lessons too ..now a lil  seriously....:)
One day,he gave me a card..it was written Happy Anniverasy...actually it was his mom dad's anniversary card..he wrote inside "ima(love sign)..dear friends "...
Another day he plucked a flower from his garden for me.... next day he took out a flower from his flower vase...n gave it to me..i kept it aside.....
feelin a lil guilty of wat aunty wud think bout me accepting d stuff from her drawing room gifted to me by her son..i kinda found it funny too...
i used to tell dis everyday funny n sweet things to my fren while on our way to our hostels..n laughed our way out...the dull day wud turn to a lively evening.....
One day bcz she knew d kid wud be waiting for me..she asked me to stay outside..n when she entered she saw d kid lookin for me n she bluntly sed...
"aaj didi nahi ayegi"...he was upset..n wen i enterd few seconds later...he wa so angry to see me..n rushed to my fren n sed......"aage se aisa mazak mat karna"........
my fren was too shocked to hear dis.....n i jus too cudnt believe it.......
I then sed him sorry n he was ok after smtime....he then took his guitar..a tiny red one..went in front of me n sang a Rock On song..not too clearly but cz i loved d album i knew which sng it was..i jus smiled.....it was    "Socha Hai..."
Few days later he had to leave dis place n my fren sed ..see d kid is very fond of u n before he leaves u shud dettach urself from him for his betterment ..he is jus a kid...wat if he misses u it will hamper his studies...
So, on The last day of my visit to his place i told him study well ok u hav to come first ..
n d  little one knowing not much of what he sed i guess..stated "aapke liye to main jaan bhi de sakta hun...."
shocked a little wid dat kinda statement,i had nothing to say...I cudnt even say something....dont ever say this or something like it..
I was happy worried shocked all at d same time...he really didn know what he sed..i jus assured myself of dis..he doesn really know wat he jus sed...
Finally,as the day was to end..i sed him goodbye...he came wid his mom till d gate....
I waved him for a long time thinking...Thank You Dear...for such a sweet memory...n giving me a reason to smile...jus in time wen it was fading away....

The Lovely Evening.....:)

Its about that lovely evening when I was just outside standing in the balcony....the cool breeze was making me feel so at peace...and the view from my balcony was just so awesome...It happens sometimes when u just so enjoy standing alone in the balcony and look at the sky..and the moon with that perfect shape...the moon visible behind the clouds..i guess it was kinda painters sight!!!


I was so caught in that beauty that even when i had no intentions to miss anybody..I started having that feel that I am missing someone...Have u ever felt that thing...that when u are Lost in the thoughts of someone , u just happen to check your phone every second moment ..may be expecting a call...but ya somewhere deep inside u know that the person wont call ..but still u just cant avoid d feeling ..just cz u r missing someone so much....Minutes pass away..n the breeze continues to make u feel all d more good...ignoring the fact that it might just be responsible to make u sweep into d thoughts of that someone....n then u hold your phone firmly n take a deep breath as if u r on for a great task...you then scroll through your phone book and come across many names,..your family members ...your friends ..people whom u know who might help u come out of this uneasy feeling..but no..u don't call anybody n then continue to scroll n come across THE number ....the number of that person u so wanna talk to...u almost press the call button but then somehow u stop!!...u think about the person..the times spent...the good times..the amazing feeling of being together...lots of thoughts..n then along with it also comes the reason that is giving u this uneasy feeling...the feeling that actually is stopping u from pressing the call button!!! n even wen u r so outspoken n can even can talk to a stranger..u still don't have the courage to call that one person..really strange !!I guess this strange feeling is cz u know that the person somehow won't respond to u ...the way u want the things to be..n u just drop the idea of calling...the feeling lingers on for quite a while....n then somehow u make yourself understand....u just say to your heart its ok!! u don't have to call..what if the person is not thinking of u anyway!! u just ignore your feelings..continue to enjoy the pleasure the lovely evening is granting...but since the evening has brought the thought of someone..u come back to your room...play some songs....get lost in the music... the lyrics....the memories...n the loneliness................






















Who was the one i was missing....???? Keep Guessing... ;)